Thursday, August 25, 2011


I had my first nightmare last night about Matt. It was very strange and haunting. I accidentally came across a picture of his body on the hospital bed after he died... but it looked as if he was staring at the camera. He was dead though... blood on his upper torso and head and on the bed sheets. I looked away, horrified, and when I looked back at the picture, it was just the hospital bed. His body was gone. It seems like there was some communication between us at some point but I cannot remember at all what was said (I'm pretty sure this was not while I was viewing the photo).

Then all I remember in my nightmare was seeing a bunch of head trauma scenes play before me like someone was playing a video. It was the most disturbing dream I've had in a long time.

I wonder what in the world prompted that.

On a happier note, I'm seeing how Matt's death has brought people together and continues to bring people together even over a month later. He had such a strong, positive impact on everyone that so many people are reaching out to each other, to me, to our family... and it brings a sense of warmth and peace to see that. Thank you.

1 comment:

  1. Steph,

    I have had some disturbing dreams as well, so i just want you to know that you are not alone. I ended up having to drop my Anatomy class this semester due to the nightmares. Needless to say, working with cadavers are not going to be in my future for a very long time. I'll tell you the dream some other time. You are not alone. I love you so much...