Friday, June 15, 2012

Long time, no see!

I have had at least one exam every week for the last six weeks.  But yesterday marked my last day of anatomy & physiology and I couldn't be more relieved about that even though I will probably re-take the class next year at Grand Valley to get a better grade.  These summer classes have been a struggle.  I have sacrificed my performance in chemistry in order to keep my head above water in A&P.  Now I can devote the rest of my summer to chemistry and hopefully bring myself back up!

My nursing school plans might not work out this fall but I am still going to keep with my original course of action, apply this fall, and if I don't get accepted into the program, oh well.  I was starting to become stressed but I have prayed about it and I realized that there is no absolute NEED for me to be finished with school in 2014.  It's not like I don't have time.  I have plenty of time.  I just really hope I don't have to re-take organic chem because I despise labs.

Another reason why I am choosing to let God take control of my future is because I am otherwise very happy right now.  Happier than I ever thought I would be at this point.  Happy in a way I never thought would be possible if I had been asked 10 months ago.  Life is GOOD and that is a huge deal for me!

I think the last time I wrote, I had taken off my engagement ring.  I chose to remove it completely; not wear it on my right hand instead or put it on a necklace.  It wasn't meant for that.  It is my hope that Noah or Chloe will want it one day.  Same with the wedding band because I actually didn't last too long wearing only that; maybe a week... then it joined the engagement ring in the safe.  So my left ring finger is bare and I am not going to lie, finally taking those rings off was kind of... nice.  It was almost a sense of liberation.  I still wear Matt's wedding band on my left index finger and I still don't ever intend to remove it.

I am at peace.