I have had at least one exam every week for the last six weeks. But yesterday marked my last day of anatomy & physiology and I couldn't be more relieved about that even though I will probably re-take the class next year at Grand Valley to get a better grade. These summer classes have been a struggle. I have sacrificed my performance in chemistry in order to keep my head above water in A&P. Now I can devote the rest of my summer to chemistry and hopefully bring myself back up!
My nursing school plans might not work out this fall but I am still going to keep with my original course of action, apply this fall, and if I don't get accepted into the program, oh well. I was starting to become stressed but I have prayed about it and I realized that there is no absolute NEED for me to be finished with school in 2014. It's not like I don't have time. I have plenty of time. I just really hope I don't have to re-take organic chem because I despise labs.
Another reason why I am choosing to let God take control of my future is because I am otherwise very happy right now. Happier than I ever thought I would be at this point. Happy in a way I never thought would be possible if I had been asked 10 months ago. Life is GOOD and that is a huge deal for me!
I think the last time I wrote, I had taken off my engagement ring. I chose to remove it completely; not wear it on my right hand instead or put it on a necklace. It wasn't meant for that. It is my hope that Noah or Chloe will want it one day. Same with the wedding band because I actually didn't last too long wearing only that; maybe a week... then it joined the engagement ring in the safe. So my left ring finger is bare and I am not going to lie, finally taking those rings off was kind of... nice. It was almost a sense of liberation. I still wear Matt's wedding band on my left index finger and I still don't ever intend to remove it.
I am at peace.