Bringing up the fact that I am a widow in a normal conversation isn't that much of a struggle anymore. I used to despise it for the sheer fact that I didn't want to make the other person feel bad. Now, it has become a normal part of who I am and if I'm having a casual conversation that might lead in the direction of marriage, husband, what-have-you... I can mention it with ease. Of course, the reactions don't change but I think I have become better able to handle them without feeling like I am ruining their day. No, it's not ruining their day. I hope to be a good example of overcoming tragedy. That's what it is. And lately, that's become more and more how I feel. Not a sad story, but a good example. That's what I hope to be. No matter how distant I drift from the day my husband died, I want to always remember and respect everything I went through from day one until the present. I am coming up on two years now. This Saturday will be the two-year anniversary of Matt's death. My boyfriend, the kids, and I will head up to Crystal Lake to be with the family and enjoy life. I anticipate it being a good weekend.