Matt showed up in the middle of one. It was really strange. I was having a dream with him in it (as a character)... and then he showed up. So there were two of him. The "real" Matt was just standing there and he smiled at me. He looked really good, too. He is getting tan (from all that Heavenly light, I suppose), lol. And it looked like he just had a haircut; it was short. It was right at the end of this dream I was having; right before I woke up. Oh, and now that I'm recording this, my memory is serving me well - we hugged. We hugged and I kind of folded myself into his chest, I turned my head (to my left) and pressed it against him to get as close to him as I possibly could. It seemed very brief. Brief but wonderful. We did not talk. Then I woke up.
This is the best thing that happens to me these days. It's the closest to him I can ever get for as long as I live. So I hold onto these special moments that are purely transcendental. They bring me back to him and remind me that even though I can't touch him, can't speak to him, can't smell him, can't hear him... he is not far. Always with me.
Day three since my husband's death... the day I am ready to start documenting my thoughts. Any thoughts. Random thoughts. Honest thoughts.
I don't really know how else to contact you, I first heard your story on the nest in starting over... You are on my mind a lot and in my prayers. I can't explain why... The other day I was in the car and listening to my XM radio, a channel call The Message. This song came on and I immediately thought of you. I hope it doesn't upset you, but helps you find some comfort. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbsBUf9VKyc
ReplyDeleteThat is an amazing song. Thank you for sharing it with me. The lyrics are so true.
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