I'm flying back to North Carolina on Tuesday. My brother-in-law, Tom, is flying back with me and the kids. I am planning on this being a very difficult homecoming... I will be stepping into an incomplete home. I will be facing all of Matt's belongings, facing a million memories, looking at our house pretty much the way it was left when he was still alive. I can't believe I have to pack it all up and walk away a widow. I thought we would be leaving our house together... to move on to a new and exciting place... move on to a bigger house where we could continue to grow our family. Matt wanted the perfect life for us and he worked hard for it.
Today I just feel so empty. In complete despair. Just missing him. Empty.
And there is such a long road ahead of me. But I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. At least I can count on prayer, if nothing else.
Day three since my husband's death... the day I am ready to start documenting my thoughts. Any thoughts. Random thoughts. Honest thoughts.
I came across your blog through the bump. I'm so sorry for your loss. Reading your posts immediately brings tears to my eyes- I can't tell you how strong you seem. My heart is broken for you.
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